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How to start this post. Oh btw this will be a post full of rants. Can skip if you want. Need a place to vent my anger on.

Well. Just 2 words to describe these few days.


zzz. school sucks. the most. School always sucks by the way. Go there get pissed only. -.- One side is Ms Goh. Last week I skipped CCA for awhile. First day got caught. Second day also. First day we went to com lab play awhile. Then stupid CCA teacher go tell her. Next day, Dad came school see teachers and take back phone. Hungry, went to eat. Eileen helped me to ask senior for break. I was there with Eileen also. Only I did not ask. But she said "we". Again fucking CCA teacher had to even ask about break. What sia? Cannot hungry is it? Now worse until can't even get hungry? Then goh say I DID NOT ask for permission. Which part of "WE WE WE WE WE WE" does she NOT understand? Zzzzz like that 350 words reflection. Extra 100 words. What the fuck is this luh? Starting from that day onwards I sit outside her office everyday. Till 5pm. To get tortured.

Sigh. I really don't know how to describe everyday anymore. I'm feeling stressed.. Very stressed..

I sit outside everyday thinking: Why.. Am I sitting here? I don't smoke... I didn't do very very very very serious things.. Why am I sitting here like a criminal? Only able to go home whenever you are happy to release me...? Is attire that important? I see people walking home. I feel like exploding. I feel like hitting somebody ~.~ I can't sit still. Like. WHY AM I HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M GOING MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1.40pm to 5pm!!!! Can't read story books, can't talk, can't walk around. IT'S WORSE THAN BEING IN PRISON. WORSE THAN DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SOME CRAZY TEACHERS NEVER FAIL TO TELL MY PARENTS HOW GOOD IT IS TO BE COUNSELLED BY HER. I'M NOT EVEN COUNSELLED BY HER IN THE FIRST PLACE

I feel like I'm stressed up to the point where I'm going mad soon. I can't control it anymore. Now I hate school. I hate everything.
I'm starting to suspect if there's anything wrong with my memory. I can't remember things talked about hours ago. Neither can I remember bout yesterday. I tend to forget things easily.

Worse is there's nothing I can do about it. But I won't let myself go crazy like this. Guess I should start doing something about it.

There's actually so much, so much I wanna talk about. But now I don't know what to say.

I'm stressed like fuck.