Depressed.

... lol. I don't know what's up recently but life sucks. Seriously..

Every morning I wake up and the first thing I think of is:

1. School...? Why is today school again? Why school everyday? What's the point?

2. Miss Goh... How is she gonna torture me today?

3. CCA...? How to skip it today?

Lol, I feel everything is so pointless. Sick and tired of reporting to goh everyday. During school time I be thinking what excuses to give so I don't have to see her. Thursdays and Fridays I be thinking what excuse to give to skip CCA.

Life completely changed... Since 2009. I don't know how long this is gonna go on... But it's kinda driving me crazy.

Today after school I didn't report to her. Now I'm stressed up thinking what she'll do to me tomorrow.

Sometimes I really wonder why am I like a prisoner, having to report to her every now and then, and she's torturing me.. It's worse than hell I swear. It's not like I smoke. I don't do illegal things. Just becuz of attire I'm like getting tortured everyday. It's not like I never change!!! Why can't I be like other students, feeling so free after school, doing whatever they want.

And I'm really down on my luck since the start of 2009. Nothing good's been happening. Only bad things one after the other.

Yesterday morning reported in as late. Cuz had breakfast with ChinTeng. Reported in at 7.45am. Got scolded by goh. Class for lessons. Science, soh came to Science lab look for me give me pink form cuz I was late. ONLY ONCE IN THE SECOND YEAR LEH!!!! STRAIGHT AWAY PINK FORM!!!! Others late so many times also don't need pink form la!!!! I first time only, one chance also don't give!!! Plus she asked us to tick "late for class", not "late for school". When asked, she say "because you both special". Why? I don't see the need. I'm only late once. I've never been late all the time. Everybody was like "walao!" when they heard why I receieved pink form. Even never got pink form one also feels it's unfair la!!! Needless to say me!!!! ZZZ

Then I went to toilet without pass but had permission. I don't see anything wrong. Got scolded by Ms Carmelia. After school went to report. Actually I can go already. Ms Carmelia being a kind soul just had to remind Ms Goh that I went to the toilet without pass. Straight away, reflection 250 words why I went to the toilet without pass. Tell me if this is really worse than hell? Lucky I wrote quick and when she left her office I gave it to her otherwise god knows what time I have to stay till.

Today morning reported in late also. Cuz had breakfast again. Waited for her outside her office. Then got scolded by her cuz she said that we should look for her at the staff room. Wtf? She's like all around the school. Later look for her she say it's truancy. Everything also cannot. Wait outside her office also she say, go staff room also she say. She came up, got scolded by her. Cuz she said that I should've looked for her at the staff room instead. So she said I don't have to go back to class. Then wrote a reflection on why I was late and why I did not look for her at the staff room, 250 words each. (..............) I don't know what to say.

She asked ChinTeng to see her in her office. She passed her phone to another guy, got caught by goh. Then she also checked my bag. What next? Phone got confiscated. I didn't even use it in front of her. I'm not in the wrong. Why should my phone be confiscated? For 2 weeks. zzzzzzzzz.

WORSE OF THE WORSE: goh said I have to make an appointment from form teacher, tell her my phone was confiscated and see when my parents can come down to take it back. Guess what she said?

"-jiao bin- -frowns- YOUR BUSINESS LA!"

WHAT THE FUCK? I also never use right! What kind of form teacher sia! I'M NOT EVEN IN THE WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At first she buay song buay song then say what 2 weeks later make appointment. CRAZY. Is exactly on 8th May I get it back, still want me wait till after 8th May. During Chinese, got pink form again cuz did not attend CCA.

I have like so much up on my head that I have to take note of. Reflections, homeworks, CCA, other crazy people's faces & attitude. Why!!!!

So tell me why I should not hate school!!

And so what if I hate school, I still have to attend it everyday and see other's faces. SO SICK AND TIRED.

I'm down to depression next!!!!

Entering SKSS was the BIGGEST mistake in my whole life I swear.

Sigh... I feel that I really have to rant.

What to do?

LIFE SUCKS.

Bye. I'm gonna go sleep.